Time is changing, do I need to?

by Praval

Edited( on request):
There are times when you feel life has come to a halt. One such feeling is down here bothering me for no good reason, or may be a lot of them. Pondering into thoughts of wisdom (that’s what I call them!) leads me to middle-of-nowhere. Willing to fight hard for things that are just not under one’s control. 100 odd things come up in a jiffy and then pass on, making an adverse impact on the living.
Life has been full of hurdles. Today, looking down and looking up makes a symmetry out of my life. I can’t go down, tha’ts against my rules and It’s tough to look up, as I can see nothing but an unknown horizon. I have no options but to take a leap. One step at a time, towards a goal where I shall reach in my own good way, in my own good time.
Can’t just things change? All of a sudden? Either this way or the other way round? May be, I am a bit too far fetched but this is how it is and this is how it hurts. I lately realized that there are things which just don’t kill you but do everything else to mark a burn!
I somehow have developed a feeling that a countdown for departure has begun. Departure from this rosy world, if at it is an illusion. If it’s not, then why can’t I hold it? Why can’t I feel it when I wish to and see it when my eyes are tired and wet? Aren’t these symptoms enough to prove it to be an illusion? If not, come and challenge me. Come and prove it. Let me see it, feel it and hold it.

UPDATE: “Do not let someone become a priority in your life, when you’re just an option in his/her’s.”